So playing the game... I recently was beaten at my own game.

Not in a bad way but good. My friend, who I adore, finally put it out there that we should do it. I was shocked and amazed to say the least. Wonderfully he was awesome. We laughed, moaned, and enjoyed every hour just as friends but also fucking. It's been a long time since a man has made me feel like he did. Almost 6 years since I've had a sexual encounter where I actually said stop too much and meant it! Usual I'm begging for more but don't get it. Le Sigh.

So now, as usual, I'm so worried. I love this guy as a friend and don't want to loose our friendship. But I don't wanna sweep this under the rug because it was awesome and hope it happens again. But I don't know how he sees the situation. We had been drinking and I'm sure we were sobered up after a few hours but I haven't seen him drunk before. So not knowing what's the norm with him I'm so confused. Blah. Plan for the worst hope for the best.

Why does sex always mess with friendships? Well most of the time it does...

Is anyone out there?

So today is the day my friend... (Lets call him Jack)is turning 17. In the state of Maryland that means he is now of legal age to... boink. Now saying that I do have to wonder... should I go ahead or say never mind and wait another year till it feels a little more acceptable. You know... as I get older it's like... I'm almost ready to just say... fuck it. I don't need sex! But then I remember who I am and I smack myself in the face!

<3 and cupcakes

So I joined this site with intentions just to keep up with one friend. Which it seems this site doesn't help me at all with. So feeling unfulfilled I'm asking... ANY one out here want to chat, be friend, be interesting enough to keep this account?

Asking all freaks, fun people, furries, gamers, and anyone else who's not a phony.

Peace and Party,

J

I am looking for work! cleaning houses, baby sitting, interior decorating, moving, garbage disposal, jewelry making, hair, singing, dancing horribly, anything!!!

Lemme know!

I'm a little fluffy ball of kitty bliss.

I've met a lot of people off another website but think this one would be a lot better to talk and get to know each other.

I've gone through a lot in my life...
There’s been pain torment love compassion and all the in-betweens. I'm glad I'm a kitty with 9 lives otherwise I'd be a goner. I’m not here to ask for forgiveness, help, or whatnot. I’m here to talk live and be free!

I’m looking for real friends, pen pals, and gamer friends, and random late night talkers, people to show me artists that I haven’t heard of before or even be an artist of whatever type they want to be. I just want to make the best of what I have and if cuddling or catnip is involved I’m game.

I'm plain as vanilla Levi J-Rok
take it or leave it

In referance to renting video games


Josh-hey know anything I can check out to play with tonight
Chris-you can take my cock home
Josh-I've already got a cock but I'm having trouble beating it


OHhhh Snap That made me smile

Random thought going through my head.
Will anyone remember me when I'm gone
Or is the moments we share forever out there
Standing still in time
Waiting to be relived over and over again.

I wonder
About which is more meaningful
Life
Or
Death

Is no one really cared about or loved until missed?
Do you have to die to be seen for what you really are?

I feel as though no one see's me how I am
Full of Love and Tourment
Pulled between worlds of Anticipation and Disappointment
Always wondering what's around that next turn
Is that turn where I fall from grace
Or possibly into it?

Does anything really matter?
Do I really care or is it a show because I want
I want to be noticed
I want what isn't mine
And I need that bit of hope
Like a reason

So today I've stopped accepting what I used to accept
And that's making me feel EMO
And that makes me MAD

Fuck this and Fuck that and Fuck Me

Ranting is such a stupid way of dealing with the unknown

but I rant non-the-less

Good night kids... I need some sleep

-J to the Rok

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool...just type it in man!


Opening Credits:
Local H - Copasetic

Waking Up:
Jack off Jill –Angels fuck, Devils Kiss

First Day Of School:
Sarah Brightman – Deliver Me

Falling In Love:
Snake River Conspiracy – Oh Well

Losing Virginity:
Mindless Sell Indulgence - Clarrisa

Fight Song:
Louis XIV – The Hunt (wtf)

Breaking Up:
We are scientist –easy kill

Prom:
Mindless self indulgence - Bitches

Life:
Thursday - We Will Overcome

Mental Breakdown:
Joy Drop – Beautiful like You

Driving:
Eels – Goddamn right it’s a Beautiful day

Getting Back Together:
DJ Sammy – We’re in heaven

Wedding:
Hannibal soundtrack - Opera

Birth of Child:
White Zombie - Electric Head

Final Battle:
Carly Simon – All I want is You

Death Scene:
Darude - Sandstorm

Funeral Song:
We are Scientist – The Creeper

Ending Credits:
Black eyed Peas – Let’s get it started


I did not cheat otherwise I wouldn't admit to having carly simon in my library lol

I feel this overwhelming doubt and despair,
My blood feels as if it is thickening,
Trying to push out my veins and break me,
It rushes,
But cannot find an exit.
And so it settles in a spinning maelstrom of pain inside my chest;
I reach for my heart,
To heave it to the surface,
To escape it from the pain
But as I reach into the swirling thumping pain
I only find emptiness.

Confused and at a complete loss,
I try to listen to my heart beat but
I can only hear the sound of my heavy shallow breaths.
Am I losing air?
Did my lungs fall with my heart into the maelstrom?
Why when I reach for my chest to make way for air,
All I do is push harder into the void that’s forming inside.


Slowly I calm myself holding onto the wall or the floor,
Feeling myself stop spinning,
But shaken by the rooms movement,
Why am I told that it’s nothing?
Why am I told that I’m just unhappy?
Why doesn’t anyone want to see what’s really going on inside of me,
What is going on in my mind!
Why do you push it to the back of your thoughts?
And let me fester in the empty void that was once my life…